first day

to me,
i thought it didn't start off as i expected.

a lot said i've changed,
or i've gone emotional,
but i wasn't.
not at all.

it's the first day,
but i wasn't as exciting as i hoped.
was sitting in the corner,
waiting for some craziness to take over,
but it didn't.
friends catching up with each other,
i just had to listen,
didn't have much to say.
but i wasn't emotional.
if i was,
i wouldn't have speak at all.

perhaps it's for the best,
then i have the time to really focus on myself,
not too much,
just a little bit.
to find the balance back,
to make me better.