Bad Week

i know i've said that 2014 will be my year,
i've said i have a feeling it's gonna be a good one.
but it turns out to be slightly wrong on the very first week.

GAHHH
had a rough week,
can't wait for the week to end,
and start all over next week.
can't draw well, can't think well, can't sleep well.

lots and lots of problems going on.
in school,
in my head,
urgh i just wish i can go back to high school and just
sleep all the problems out.

sleeping in high school is kinda my thing,
love it.
although i wake up sweating every single time,
but you know although the world around you is really busy,
but you get to have this few minutes of peace to yourself,
to not think about anything at all.

:(
i just need some time with my old friends now.
waiting for a day where we don't have to plan any activities,
just sit down and just talk about everything.

:(

Assignments

just the 3rd day of class,
assignments start to flow in.
6 figures in a week, for the whole sem, wth.

moral studies' presentation topic is given also.
everything is moving so fast.

i can feel it's gonna be a hectic sem.

D:

first day

to me,
i thought it didn't start off as i expected.

a lot said i've changed,
or i've gone emotional,
but i wasn't.
not at all.

it's the first day,
but i wasn't as exciting as i hoped.
was sitting in the corner,
waiting for some craziness to take over,
but it didn't.
friends catching up with each other,
i just had to listen,
didn't have much to say.
but i wasn't emotional.
if i was,
i wouldn't have speak at all.

perhaps it's for the best,
then i have the time to really focus on myself,
not too much,
just a little bit.
to find the balance back,
to make me better.

it's time for a change

it's a new year,
i want myself to look more mature, think more mature, and act more mature.
dont let stupid little things get in the way,
it's not worth it having these things ruin my year.

2014,
i can feel it,
it's gonna be my year.
it's the year i will soar,
it's the time for me to shine.
and i won't let anything get in the way.

stay optimistic.
:)

Year 2 Sem 1

so college reopens tomorrow.
it's moral studies for the first day.
although not very psyched about it,
but i know i have to ace this subject.

anyway,
school starts tomorrow.
2 months of holidays bores the crap outta me.
finally back to college.
don't know what to expect,
but definitely aiming for something.

might see a new me? i hope.
the one who listen to the lecture instead of playing phone games, chatting, waiting for time to pass.
the one who finish his assignment early instead of lots of last minute work.
the one who gives the best presentation instead of always envy the ones who are better.

i'm all revved up for it.
NEW YEAR,
NEW START,
NEW ME.

Girlfriend?

2014,
i'm considered, well, 19 years old already?
soon to enter the 20's.
and well,
i'm still single and available.

adults,
like my uncles and aunts will keep on babbling about
why haven't i bring home a girl and stuff like that,
even my mom.

my mom even asked me in private,
am i gay?
well,
i'm not.
but still,
why no girlfriend?

asked myself?
why not yet?
it's not like there's no one out there whom i think is really my type and stuff,
i just don't think it's time yet y'know?
and i don't think i've met the one who's really special,
and gives me the really special feeling to go after her yet.

maybe i always give myself an excuse.
that excuse is "i'm gonna be someone new when i'm come back from overseas"
which means i'm waiting for the moment to completely change my whole image.
in that year,
perhaps i'll go body building, to look stronger,
maybe a different hairstyle,
and maybe,
meet someone special.

and maybe i'm not confident enough.
girls might say i'm too short,
maybe a little too skinny,
not that typical 180cm hunk they like.


well anyways,
i'll meet someone when it's time.
maybe i've met her,
but timing is always the most important.
who knows it's perhaps my neighbour?
or my classmate?
or my cousin's....... cousin???
whatever,
but yea, i know she's out there someone,
perhaps waiting for me as well. *shyshy*

2014 is finally here!

new year,
new beginnings,
new aims,
new targets,
new sets of goals,
new dreams,
new memories.

although some things from 2013 will drag us along the way,
something that keep us from walking straight,
but we still have to move on and let go at some point.

so i wish everyone out there in the world,
a better life, happier life, healthier life.

<3