TRUE SELF?

sometimes in life,
the people you thought you can trust,
might not be.

only until now,
i know everyone has 2 sides.
a side that tries to impress,
a side he/she wants to hide.

i hate people who acted all innocent and fine in front of people.
but secretly is not that innocent at all.
i hate people who thinks he/she is so optimistic,
but in reality they are the ones who thinks about everything so much, they turn into freakin maniacs.
i hate people who tries to leave a super good impression of himself/herself,
just to make people stand on their side.

seriously,
people,
grow up.
do yourself a favour.
or you'll be the one to hate one day,
i'll promise you that.

I NEED A GUIDE

sometimes,

i feel i need someone to give me a book,

so i can so whatever it says,

to keep myself on track,

so i won't get lost.

i'm tired of banging wall after wall.

i don't wanna repeat things that i've done wrong,

i don't wanna be afraid of what will come next,

i just need a book to tell me what to do.

really stressful recently,

don't know how should i adjust myself,

body condition is not well,

mentally super exhausted,

only get 3-4 hours of sleep everyday.

ugh.

i don't know why am i writing this.

i guess i just need some sleep.

zzz

Sick

i guess it's the stress,

and all the unwanted anger i was going through this couple of weeks,

lead to a fever at a very bad timing.

i guess working too hard is not what i need,

because somehow i dont think i can cope with it.

skipping one day class made me feel like a loser,

like i'm way behind of everyone else.

gahhhh..

should've went although wasn't quite feeling well.

Mom was worried it might be dengue fever,

if it is,

i'd be doomed.

really need to take care of my health,

while rushing all the assignments.

Health comes first, always.

Deep thoughts

didnt know time passed so fast,
was standing in the shower,
let the water flow down from my head to my toes,
for an hour.
fingers went wrinkled.
whole body turned red,
because of the warm water i was bathing with.

in that hour,
i thought alot.
felt sorry about what i've said about u.
although i'm still super pissed,
i dont think i should've said things like that.




im really super stressful.
i dont know how to face you anymore.
when i see you,
everything bad about you just rushes through my brain.

i didnt want this to happen.
not like that.

i really hope you understand what you need to do.
what you need to work for.

otherwise,
i dont know whats gonna happen between us.

谁变了？

曾经是非常要好的朋友，
现在表面上感觉彼此都在装，
但说实话，
我能把你的头砸烂的话，
我早就那么做了。

没有试过对一个人那么反感过。
又嚣张又自以为是，
说要努力，
什么鬼都没做的人，
呸！

同组就算我衰运了，
好好提醒要做的事，
一拖再拖。
拖出来的东西，
屁酱的东西，
自己要重新帮你做过。

有眼睛的人，
应该都可以看到我对你的忍耐程度。
不是不想好好跟你相处，
不是不要跟你一起同组讨论功课。
是你的性格问题，
我真的受不了。

讲句难听话，
你自己成绩不理想，
你不介意就算了，
但请你不要拖累其他想要努力的人。

我知道不只我跟你提过，
已经第二年了，
是时候专心了，
是时候拼命了。
好心提醒你被你说成诋毁你的人格。
我无语了。

忍耐是有限的。
迟早一天不是吵架，
就是我大发泄。
我不想看到到时的我。
请你不要让我见到。

写这封给你看到，
我也死定。
所以希望你不要看到。
就当做让我发泄发泄。

黎骏业，
再忍忍吧。

Motivation

Hold on...

Heartbeat raised.

Face blushed.

Started babbling.

umm.
ummmm.
ummmmmm.


Have i?

Have i met?

*giggles*

It's just the matter of time,
that i'll prove to you i can do it.
You hang in there,
wait for me.
:*)

CHINESE NEW YEAR

so sorry, i haven't wish all my readers a very happy chinese new year.
bu not very happy for me.
i consider this chinese new year a bad one.

bad date, less holidays,
falls on wrong semester, 'cause 10 figure portraits for homework this week,
bad luck, lose every single gamble,
everything just seems so wrongggg.

3rd day just finished,
i hope tomorrow will be a better one,
at least let me enjoy one good day of chinese new year.

but it freakin' sucks to know that i have 10 more portraits to go,
and i have to submit on wednesday.
gahhhhhhhhh.

please please please.
i deserve a better chinese new year than this.
please.

imma go cry in bed now.
good night.
:(